Letting Go & Letting God
I'm nervously excited. I don't know what is waiting for me around the corner, but this last week has been huge in my life. I'm not sure what the Lord is getting ready to do, but I'm feeling impressed more and more each day to completely surrender my desires and plans to Him and just sit back and watch Him work.
In many ways, I'm a "go with the flow whatever happens happens", kind of person, but when it comes to life goals I know what I want and I'm going to be in control, and God, please get on board with my plans already. (for me, this mostly relates to singleness. I'll blog more about this later.) Well, nothing like a nice 2x4 upside the head to straighten out your thinking. Friday night I was sitting in service at my church for Good Friday and God, through Dr. Stanley, once again, was speaking straight to my heart. I don't know if anyone else sitting in that building got anything he said, but for me it was dead on. I've done my thing for long enough and it's time to let God take over completely.
Don't get me wrong. In all of my enthusiasm there is a huge part of me that is trembling at this thought. Let go of what I want? My perfect dream world??? But what if God's plans turn out to be so much more boring than mine??? And here lies the battle between my flesh and soul, but this is about faith, right? The flesh side of me argues for my plans (which by the way, I can't even make happen of my own will no matter how hard I try) while the side of me that knows who my Jesus is, KNOWS He'll never let me down and His perfect plan for my life is going to be so much more fulfilling than my plans...thus, my need to die to self and surrender.
So here it goes, I'm diving in head first!
In many ways, I'm a "go with the flow whatever happens happens", kind of person, but when it comes to life goals I know what I want and I'm going to be in control, and God, please get on board with my plans already. (for me, this mostly relates to singleness. I'll blog more about this later.) Well, nothing like a nice 2x4 upside the head to straighten out your thinking. Friday night I was sitting in service at my church for Good Friday and God, through Dr. Stanley, once again, was speaking straight to my heart. I don't know if anyone else sitting in that building got anything he said, but for me it was dead on. I've done my thing for long enough and it's time to let God take over completely.
Don't get me wrong. In all of my enthusiasm there is a huge part of me that is trembling at this thought. Let go of what I want? My perfect dream world??? But what if God's plans turn out to be so much more boring than mine??? And here lies the battle between my flesh and soul, but this is about faith, right? The flesh side of me argues for my plans (which by the way, I can't even make happen of my own will no matter how hard I try) while the side of me that knows who my Jesus is, KNOWS He'll never let me down and His perfect plan for my life is going to be so much more fulfilling than my plans...thus, my need to die to self and surrender.
So here it goes, I'm diving in head first!
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