1:00 am - From My Heart

It's almost 1:00 am. I've been up working on a paper...it's the last week of class and it's the final push. I'm going to be brutally honest here. (though my personal pride would prefer I not be) I'm not doing so great. Pressure is on and it's coming from every possible area. It's almost laughable as I look around me and wonder could anything else possibly pile on top of me. All the stress has lead to floundering grades over midterms and I either have to slam dunk the final or I'm going to be repeating at least one class and bump graduation to this fall.

I'm still devastated over our dear friend, Doug Murr. Reading his blog every day breaks my heart. I can' stop weeping and praying for his precious family. This last week I found out another family friend is battling a serious illness, my office is relocating and the entire responsibility of a smooth transition falls completely on my shoulders, along with my regular full time job, my family is struggling in this economy, and to top it all off...there's finals. I really just want to bury my head in the sand and hope I wake up to find it all behind me, school successfully completed, the move over with, and people I love dearly completely healthy, whole and happy.

His grace is sufficient and His strength is made perfect in my weakness. I know it in my heart and I cling to it each day as I push through just one more challenge. Me alone = failure, Me + Jesus leading = success. He just never promised me it was going to be easy. I'm placing my trust in Him and no matter my circumstances my heart will choose to say, Lord, blessed be your name!

Looking unto Jesus...love and goodnight.

~Rebecca